Finding your Soul
My brain would explode soon if I sat any longer. Caught in a circle of never ending thoughts. Life just seems to get to you sometimes. It felt like I had no use getting out of bed. It had been awhile since I had these feelings. Some call it depression but I would not want to tag it with a single word. Especially since the emotions were extreme. People around me thought I was doing really well but when the nights came I sat up in until the morning hours contemplating every bit of my life till date.
My childhood friend @iyarkayinmozhi always had a way of getting into my head when other could not. Its not that I told her anything about it then. She just told me one day "Babe, I have been calling you for years to come with me but you keep putting it off. I need you to come this time." On the spur of the moment I said yes. Now when I think of it I would say it was my soul grabbing onto the last ray of hope for me. I had never been this let down or low in probably a decade. After I confirmed my trip something in me kept telling me that this is what will define you.
I went in with an open mind. I fell sick few days before the trip. I took a covid test and once it came out negative I decided no matter how low or sick I am I will go for it. As I reached Nagpur with my friend I was unsure of what the next few days would unfurl. Thats when I saw her walking up, to greet all of us who had gathered there, everyone excited about the trip. My body was so tired and I was not my normal self. I was exhausted. Physically and mentally. When Manjeri walked up to say hi, I just couldn't help but notice a positive energy vibrating from her. As she hugged me to say hi, I am still unsure if she intentionally helped me feel better. I sat in the car for the first time feeling a tiny excitement. Maybe this is exactly what I needed.
As I settled into a beautiful cottage shared with another person. I knew my roomate and I had something in common. In the next few days we would realise that we had a lot more in common than we expected.
Manjeri and Indirajit (her husband) were the best hosts and everything was organised so well. From feeling unsure of myself the first day to walking out with a renewed soul on the last, I dont think anyone could have done that better than Manjeri. Everyday was a new realisation for me. Every small thing that happened and the people I met there, it all seemed to connect so well.
The first day I was unsure of my own self and Manjeri just had a way of saying the right things. What I loved most about her was she seemed so grounded and never forced her opinion on any of us. We were allowed to complete the sentence she would begin in the way that best suited us. It made me realise that each person thinks differently and forcing our opinons on them was not the way to make them understand. Everything happens at its own pace. My version of spirituality and another person's may be different. She made each of us in that room realise that no one is wrong. It is just that each one takes a different path to reach the same goal.
One day I realised how much I had been doubting myself. I had stopped mediumship as I felt like it was getting way out of hand. Today when I do my mediumship and feel comfortable taking messages from the departed souls I thank the universe and a tiny little prayer to bless the soul who showed me that mediumship is easy. I have no words to thank her for the life changes she brought in me.
Her husband Indirajit helped me a lot in ways am sure he hasn't realised too. The day all of us went for a safari, in the morning the forest seemed calm and while we stopped to listen to the alarm calls of the langurs I heard the silence of the forest. This washed every part of my soul. I still tear up with when I think of the feelings I had sitting there in the middle of the jungle listening to the silence. And in a second I could feel that mother nature had cleared my blocks. Mentally and physically. I felt renewed when I returned. I had my peers tell me that I am a forest girl since I was refreshed and back to my old self. Indirajit had something to say only when it made sense. He would tell us about the trees, the trails, the stories. There was absolute concentration when he spoke. I felt like a kid asking him questions and trying to take it all in. The day inside the jungle cleansed me of every thing that was a burden.
After my interaction with Manjeri, Indirajit and the entire Sangha I walked out of the place feeling lighter and better. If you are reading this blog until this very line, I must tell you @earthwisepune is Manjeri's page on Instagram. And if you are looking for someone who can better your life without making you feel you are stuck then a dose of this dynamic couple is what you need.
I find it difficult to thank Manjeri and Indirajit with words. But what I promised myself was that I will come back every year to be a part of their Sangha. They are two of the most vibrant souls I have seen. Down to earth, literally to earth. That is what happens when you spend enough time with nature and connect to your roots.
Thank you @earthwisepune for helping me recover my soul and @iyarkayinmozhi to push me to follow my dreams.
Spread good vibes!
Love,
Celestial Light
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